Numb...

I honestly thought I was feeling better and done crying, and then I received a text message tonight. It read:

"Don't know if you heard but Lauren Linville passed away this morning."


My stomach felt sick immediately....Lauren was a friend of Austin's that he has known since kindergarten. We used to live in the same neighborhood, and I remember Lauren would invite Austin over to play, and he would happily go...I'd pick him up, and find him with a barbie in his hands..but she was also a competitive athlete, and could hang with the boys on the soccer field. I know she broke one of her legs at least 2 times. I remember watching her cheer for Austin's football team...there might have even been a little innocent crush in there somewhere...I remember her coming by my classroom when I was her older brother's teacher. I remember hearing she had cancer, and I remember finding out not so long ago that it had found it's senseless way to her brain.

I am numb, I am devastated and I am completely confused...Another child. Another life ended way to early. Another family left to suffer.